It may never end. If it ever I don’t know when. My inability to manage this has led me into a lot of troubles and confusions. But sometimes I feel that it made me strong and bold. Anyway I’m not going to make an essay on it.

Right now I am at college. We need to complete our mini-project. Actually we are working on PIC Digital Clock Timer using 16F628. Wish to complete it as soon as possible. If anybody have got any idea about it please help.

Another improvement over here is Big Bazaar. Opened two weeks before. Not that good or bad.

And another thing is I got a birthday gift from my friend. Actually I gave them all a list of things I would like to get as b’day present. And this is one from the list. Thank God!

And nowadays I am seriously thinking about my career. I would like to join Indian Army. But I don’t have much knowledge about it. One of the very few things I know is that the recruitment procedure is not that easy. So I need to work hard!!!

I don’t know whether to terminate my studies with B.tech. Actually I need working knowledge and to be financially independent. But after some years I may regret on this. I don’t want to be…anyway I don’t think that it’s a good idea to continue my studies after some 2/3 years. It’s difficult. Whatever, I need to take a decision (wise) soon. What do you think?

the fifth sparrow

The fifth sparrow

I don’t noe how many of you noe about this fifth sparrow.its something related with bible. I will give you an idea about it. In Bible (good news), Mark states that two sparrows are sold for one buck and on the other side Luke states that five sparrows are sold for two bucks describing the same instinct. Obviously if two were sold for one buck, four for two. And I’m talking about this extra, fifth sparrow.

Some say there’s no importance .but I feel there’s something. May be it’s a free offer. yeah free …without charge…sold without value… considered so…yeah of course we think that the free thing are of no/less value.

Now the fifth sparrow… does it noe it’s sold for free. And how inferior it feel … the odd one in the crowd .does it really deserves that? What do you feel when you regarded as a fifth sparrow. May be the fifth one is not that good and best for others…still …

Even that extra sparrow is being considered as a valuable thing by God! Yeah He is there to take care about everything; even the things man ignores and finds no value.

We are very proud of what we are, like the four other sparrows. We posses something, something others find a value. Have we ever cared about the fifth one? We are always going for our well being…ever thought of the fifth sparrows encountered?

Have you ever been a fifth sparrow?

From The Unknown Soul…

I don’t like to stay at a place for a long time doing nothing. thats why I spent some days at home for the first week of vacation and return back to hostel ,again I began to feel bored there so am back at home. I feel very good being here….i don’t know why…im so happy.

May be some nostalgic feelings…

This morning I went to church since today is a Sunday. Then I was just wandering along…its ofcourse a pleasant morning…as beautiful as you want her to be… I noticed the swing, its new…it gives a good view to the waters around my house…taking my seat there I began to think…think about my childhood…those old golden days…

there were birds making their part to make nature perfect and beautiful…

I think ten years back I didn’t realize that what lonliness is …the joy of loneliness…but those days were too nice, too innocent, too beautiful…those times …yeah…

I never took a second look or thought about anything…I trusted everyone. I never wanted to be as complex as I am now. I never wanted to hurt anyone. I never wanted to be the best , but I just wanted to be a good girl. I think I was really good those days. a good daughter , a good student , a good friend, …oooh …

I went for the rosary at the grotto near the church. When I was a kid I used to go there everyday of may. It was me and my friends who decorated (I now doubt whether it was a decoration) there. Now I found some girls arranging flowers there…like me ten years before…now I feel very strange to be there…no old friends…everyone gave a look as if im a from another planet…oh its awkward !.as soon as its over, I left the place…I don’t want to be alone in a crowd…

And the rest of theday left as usual, but some memories still there at my mind…those schooldays …the strict and disciplined life and home works … about my friends there, we had nothing much to share, nothing much to hide, nothing much to gossip, nothing much to understand , nothing much to care about…only studies and such activities.

i didnt learn much about life.

As I grew up, I become independent; to think of myself, to act of myself and to live a life of my own. I know I am not always right but I do what things I think is right.and that’s why I say I live my life, a perfect one.

I wanted to try everything, whether its too odd or whatever. And I believe that by doing things no one ever has tried will take up you to a place where no one has ever reached. But these all ideas and the principles I practice in my life have left me a complex person…I can never be that old good girl whose eyes were filled with love and innocence and tears occasionally…now it has been replaced by dreams, hopes, expectations, worry and sometimes jealous and hatred .

Yeah this is how time plays its tricks…we all are victims…good or bad …I don’t know…

But I noe my life is beautiful and I am wonderful!....But something is missing…