a sweet kiss on your smile...

may be you are one among those butterflies...
or that little raindrop that kissed my cheecks...
or that beautiful arc of colors in the sky...
or that sparrow that visits my garden every morning...
or are you that shining star that smile to me every time i look at...
oooh dear , i missed you . really a lot nowadays. i noe it's been too long. yeah long 17 years since we ve partd.
i dont remember actually how you looked like...i didnt understand who you are to me... but i did saw you ... saw you there and i ddnt knew where you went.but later mother told me you was my little sister. ooh ... but i didnt care much about that. but now i miss you too much. whenever i see a litlle one i wanna kiss, hug and i dont noe ...too much.
why God didnt allow you to be with us?( oooh one more question to my 'hard to find an answer' category).given a chance i would turn back the time and pray God to let you come to us. eventhough this place isnt anything like yours, 't its nice . im not gonna tell you all those dear. i wanaa you to noe it by urself.
i was just thinking.... we didnt even discussed a name for you. and i dont noe why.
i always wanted a little sis. and i teribbly miss you.


if there is a rebirth for both you and me , i would like to carry you in my womb, give you birth, love you much and be with you always ...and you noe what im gonna call you??? ANGEL.

@ venkat's home....
vilangankunna... enjoying @ the park for under 13 children
@ vipins home...sumesh n vijay are in every picture... njangalkku kannu thattathirikkaan,

here r some picture of our mini tour to various dayschi's home....

TO MY DEAR, WITH LOVE

eventhough u didnt expect some greeting from me on ur bday, i wanted to do that. but i dint . because , .....i dont noe the reason..
whatever you are doing , whatever you think i dont actually like.. i love you 4 no reason i noe.
the more im trying to get awy, de more im attracted 2. i just cant resit.
u dont love me a bit ,na? as u lways say im mad ...some madness around u.
anyway , belated happy bday... no gift other than my love...have a great time dear.God bless u.

last week!!! like.no.other

we went to VENKANT 's, VIPIN'S , PRAMOD N LAILA N RAJESH 'S HOME.. HAD FUN .. ate a lot...NJOYED MUCH...took 1000 pics.....
and our 8th sem xams are scheduled on 3 rd of june... dont noe a bit...reading some it stuff its quite interesting...

those memories just irritate me!!!!

i feel like sharing some of my experiences of my sports age...about 8 years back. It may be the worst time i ever had in my life. whatever those were also glorious years to my sports life. but still those memories even irritates me a lot.
actaually the camp for national school games happened to be @ G V Raja sports school, trivandrum. i was in 8th standard and for the first time qualified for national schools. i actually joined the camp after 2 weeks or so coz i had the national amatuer athletic championship. i did my personal best @ that competition in pentathalon with some 3500+ points but didnt get a position. still i was happy. the point is that i was in form that time...in good rhythm...
and yeah, back to GV RAJA,i was the only girl from my school and i didnt noe anyone since it was my first... i cannot describe the situation over there. there were atleast a 50 dogs over there. and you noe , the bathroom / toilet etc were horrible. no pipe/ water suppy. so we need to queue up for water to bath , wash etc...and food ... u just cant imagine...i ate that to survive...
and there was some space to sleep , the mosquitos and other flies accompanied my dreams of winning a gold medal. . . .
and when my father came to visit me once, i felt like .....no words ...but i didnt wept...i dont noe.
we were shifted to another building...thank God..and the big day has arrived. and my event was scheduled @ 9.am. and it began to rain in the morning...my uncle( my first coach and my motivator) , my father (my support ) were there. and i was tensed...still i felt the rhythm... (u getting me??) i made 2 jumps and became foul...oopz...u cannot understand ... and for the next i made it 5.15. yeah. and i was quite happy to get qualified 2 finals. the rhythm was perfect and i was over confident so i made the all final jumps millimeter fouls....hmmm. but they measured the last jump which equalised the national record(5.35).but i was too much happy... so my father and uncle and ofcourse my mother who was praying the whole time. THANK GOD.
im just telling all these to let you noe how the young talents are treated...but still managing to get something commentable...the whole politics and stratergies there are dirty, really dirty. you cant trust anyone ...there are a lot of things that cannot be written over here...i survived there just because of my mother's prayers...

alvidha.....pic.....upload more next time

the silence of sunset...

i hope some thing special ha p pens e v e r y d a y. atleas t a goo d thought.
i went to home last we ek. and so i missed the last d a y activities @
college...
the only activities @ home a r e eating and wa tching t v. i found my s elf
occup pied in my fa vourate swing... i was jus t thinking...thinking a bout life...
what s the me aning of life? is it some thing like ma king oneself ha p p y or
ma king others ha p p y or doing the right things the right wa y or live as u wish
or some thing a bout the wa y you live or your emotions. ...i dont noe ...to tell the
truth, is there much me aning in it? what i noe a bout my life is that i enjoy
e v er y moment of it and i a p p roach it with my own views, i unde rs tand what i
do, what i deser v e and what i wish...the other side of it is that i dont care what
others think a bout my life...co z its my life... i dont noe wt r my at titude is
right...but i dont regr et...i usually dont regr et. there a re only 2 things in my life
which i felt sor r y a bout.silly... but i complain a lot , a lot on silly things just co z
i cant complain on my real sor rows...i do that only 2 my s elf. i v e ne v er blamed
my s elf e venthough ther e ha d be en a lot of a d vising and internal
collissions.hmmm...
thoughts, actions, life and a g ain life. did u get tat /?hmmm...
one of my roomma t es(theres a totalof 6 in my room) rea d my blog
r ecentlyn asked me why there isnt any thing a bout her... actually i was
planning 2 write something a bout all my hostelmates...and here v go...
1. Aar y a  anthr janam: shes so ma tur e and i share mos t of my thoughts
wi th her.so pr actical but shes so la z y. i think she weighs a bout 4 0 k g wi th
a height of 1 7 2 cms.my b ank no:1
2. Leny - illakochu:she is the tallest girl in our hostel. looks v e r y graceful
and beautiful in sari. her smile consumes atleast 2 0 0 0wat t s.
3. sony - the d ancer: the girl wi th 2 nokia n series cell phones.hmm. she
ma s sa ges quite well.and do a pr e t t y goo d k athification
4. neetha - BOSCH girl, my classmat e too: v e r y puli. v e r y helping. and
alwa y s wi th a smile on her face. shes just cra z y a bout RED. and we used
to link her with Kala vi...is ther e some thing? i dont noe... ( i ho pe shes not
gonna c this)
5. rosemin - p ar ack al: can be rg ar ded as a d a y schi... visits hostel once in a
time...her mom cooks p r et t y well...waa...ver y pulikut ti wi th goo d dr es sing
sense
6. r esmi g - k a dha k a a ri: an allrounder. wri tes v e r y well.
7. s reerenjini - food renjini. shes cra z y a bout chicken. shes the one who
r eaches the me s s first.
8. lakshmipri ya - p ala: my classmat e too. v e r y sensitive girl. r ea ds too much.
9. femina - TOP UP amma yi: my room ma t e, v er y strict a bout cleaniliness.
flies to Dub ai when she get s some 4 - 5 d a y s leav e. shes ma r ried n cra z y
a bout chocolates.
1 0.lisna:another roomma t e. shes also ma r ried. and spent mos t of the time at
home. still she mana ges to get good ma r ks
1 1.sha bna - sha a bie: i think she doesnt ha v e memo r y. she forgets
e v er y thing...she is goo d and a good d ancer, poet and a r tist.
1 2.summa y y a - BAADITHA; - my fav roomat e. she doest noe what 2 do..
whther it is to select a d r ess or select a groom. i often get irritated. but i
like her.
1 3.glisa: cs puli... got some 2 0 0 rank in g at e but not going 4 it co z her mom
n d a d wont allow...ha. she loves chat ting and ha v e got be autiful hair.my
b ank no:2.
1 4.dhany a; Anna v enu - i think she cant live without her phone. she is
intelligent and v e r y talented. but too la z y and loves sleeping especially
during stud y hols.
1 5.soumy a: jose - shes b right and shes too good. she loves e v er yone and
spends mos t of the time for p r a y e r s... nice girl. i a dmi re her.
1 6.neethu: mol - v er y beautiful rc girl. she ne v e r recie ves a call on her phone
but eng a a anum onnu v annal pinne p ar a y end a. she has got a lot of fans.
1 7.tess; tessmole - she just cant wait 4 anything. she noes e v e r yone of our
b atch... she ma y be @ US next y e ar.
1 8.achu: killa - she doesnt like any food offered in the me s s and doesnt eat.
shes v e r y active in hostel and no:1 in chali...i just cant r esit
it...hmm...smar t.
1 9.supria - sundhari - smallest one of out b atch. shes a good fren of mine.
v e r y diplomatic. simple, caring n a chali v e erathi. she has got man y fans
in collge. cute..
2 0.kitu - she hates calling her kit tu. so i alwa ys do that. hpcl lad y!!!hmmm
2 1.ri ya - allapinne theng a y a - v er y beaut y conscious and she cant sa y  no 2
any thing. shes has goo d a goo d sense in d r ess / jewel selection.
k.....
END OF THE STORY.

amma n me...betrothel...
my family...amma, me, chechi, acha..
the big """"...she looks great ,na?
oooh its over!!!

these are some pics of my cousin's betrothel and wedding...
bobby chettan n honey chechi...

nice pic na.. i love this....

yup!!!!

everytime i wear a sari i promise mysel f that im not going
to repeat this. but eventually the next time i break my promise.
and this time it was for Alvidha. Alvidha was not as i expected.
almost every programme was something like . .. i dont noe.. .and there were a lot of paampukal... what these guys think...???but kanu was the best entertainer!!! the
dance by EC boys was great .EVERYONE NJOYED.
for the f irst and last time in my l ife i got a dedication. thanz
Anoop.
actually i dont have much at tachment with my class, but i
enjoy being there. Eventhough there are not many people im
gonna miss but there are certain moments thay wil l stay in my
mind forever. i wil l really miss my hostel life. .. .very badly.
its my bday on may 5th. (i was born on 5th may 1986- --12
noon)
the past one year was the most ugliest (??) and most wonderful
year in my life. most ugliest because
1. i really walk away from God
2. i did a lot of ugly things
3. i didnt care much about my parents
4. i lost one of my best friend.. .
5. i complained a lot 2 myself . ..
most wonderful because
1. i learnt how to become bold and stubborn
2. i enjoyed those sports days @ college
3. i restarted doing that special thiing.
4. i sti ll love him a lot !!!
there wi ll not be any bday post this t ime. i expect something
special to happen this year.
God , thank you for this l ife and everything you have given
me. forgive me for all those stupid and naughty things i have
done. Give me power, knowledge and courage to fol low your
path. Amma, i love you. ..THANKS for lett ing me born.