GO ON. . .

so cozy to sleep in my sleeping bag.
the driving classes are going well and im enjoying it. no driving till monday coz of flood.
i made another lone walk today, again the same 2.5 km walk. but the difference now is that the road is flooded and its hard
to find someone walk by. one guy asked me " are you mad?" yeah im really crazy.
lot of worms, snakes and leaves.

one important point to make: I am really a very SELF CENTERED & SELFISH GIRL.
confusion : do i need to restart my sports career? i need to start from A then. And weight training is the most difficult part. NOT A SERIOUS CONCERN. sometimes i miss those days even though painful.
tressy has got hurt by something.( fragile heart, i believe.) everything is gonna perfect.the world is yours and
you know that...stay smart girl.

if its gonna rain like this , i wont be able to see the floors of my home next week!
and also i wont be able to post anything because its sure that we will encounter some problem with the telephone cable. I would like you to see my place
(wikimapia>>india>>kerala>>alappuzha>>pulincunnoo>>kalathil)
Kuttanad is 2.7 mts below sea level. someone told me that it was once the part of sea and will be again in few years!

its raining ... the only happy things about this are
1. we get enough pure water to drink
2. and enough water @ idukki dam.

Yesterday i made a wonderful dish- SPRING ONION+ EGG ...IT WAS REALLY DELICIOUS! BUT the important point is i took only
just 40 mins for the entire process.
I Modified my webpage today. got some probs with it.anyway pls visit www.tressy.we.bs

i feel not so well about two things which happened today . one is the favorite swing of mine is broken. you can see the
picture of that swing in one of my may/june 2007 posts.
the other thing is, we had a total of 38 ducks. and today one was killed by a dog of my neighbor.poor little thing.so now 37.

see, im trying very much to write my LOVE STORY but its reaching nowhere.

my favorite playlist now :
1. loneliness noes me by name
2. Amazing
3. Every little thing you do
4. Breaking my heart
5. oru naru pushpamaayee-( all time fav)
6. oru chempaneer pooviruthu
7. when u r looking like that
(yeah...i am a big fan of WESTLIFE)

AND , one of my blog visitors asked me why i named my blog " the Plateau" .
actually the reason the plateau- its my heart(its not a mountain/valley or desert).its just a similitude.and my favorite word too.
oooh i havent written any of my fav in this blog, so here it is

my fav.
1.place: actually there is nothing like that now. i love to be alone...lone.
2.person: myself. i love myself a lot.
3.name: Angel
4.feeling:the warmth when i hold a baby close to me. and ofcourse loneliness.
5.sound: the sound of silence
6.song: oru naru pushpamaayee en nerkku neelunna.
7.novel: the prodigent daughter, mayyashipushayude theerathu
8.friend: again, myself
9.topics to discuss: death and anything which hurts me.
10.hobby: thinking(WILD thinking)

this is all for now.

Cheers,
tressy

helpless!

i slept all the day. actually i wanted to write a lot of things. Anyway i will try to post a STORY next week!
last sunday , when i went to church i saw a lady who is my amma's friend. you know , she lost her husband last month, her daughter in law last year. her son is a useless fellow and he has a baby.and she is taking care of the baby now.
the lady was holding the baby. she is just 1 year old. no good dress , no good shoes. when my amma asked about "visheshams", she almost cried and asked us to pray for her. Amma said to me that she is a particular situation...no support, no money, no courage...
what can i do?
i held the the kid for sometime and then said GOOD-BYE.
helpless!

RAIN/ FLOOD ...some memories from kuttanad!

its the raining season...i dont like really, but i love watching the clouds!!!
Rainy season, it is the most horrible time for all people in Kuttanad. every year we experience a wonderful event of FLOOD for 2 weeks. when i was a kid, it was a kinda enjoyment.NO SCHOOL, NO STUDY - only tv and sleeping .usually the water level raises in a dramatic rate such that u may see 1 feet level water inside your room when you wake up! its not an exaggeration. its real.especially @ my home.hmmm...
it was really hard for the people over here to find something to eat because most of them were labourers and flood means no labour = no money. i had seen people from panchayat distributing KANJI AND PAYAR . Now things got changed. Every family has atleast one person working abroad and not much worry ! Good.
but this year , there is not much raining, may be it is reserved for the coming months.Now, the problem is NO ELECTRICITY. so my main events - watching tv and computer activities get affected! stupid me!!! why am i not thinking about those industries facing 25 % cut in electricity, meaning 35-50 % less production.
i got through the learners test and took part in my cousin's betrothel function. there was not much enjoyment. actually i dont know many of my relatives. there are a lot...ho..
Life is better now. i feel engaged in something everytime.
And I am gaining weight. want to play badminton but the weather/.
A silly thing: I NOTICED IT JUST NOW- whenever i select some dress for me , its either a green or a white!!!

Tuesday, July 22 2008
08:03 PM
MOOD: UNKNOWN
SPIRITUALITY: POOR
HEALTH:OK
BEAUTY:BELOW AVERAGE
CONFIDENCE LEVEL:6/10
UTILITY OF TIME :1/10
FAMILY: WELL, OK.
MONEY:0 BALANCE
CAREER: NOT DECIDED
ROMANCE:FEEL DEJECTED

I have never been at home for more than 3 weeks for the last four years. Its really very hard to move the wheels of time.
And as i have posted earlier, i stopped cooking because i dont think there is much adventure in it. so now i spent most of the time for sleeping and watching movies.REALLY ADVENTUROUS!! i liked some of them - Mansfield Park,The Village, Gone in 60 seconds and some funny movies like Splash,Out Cold,Blind Date,Bruce Almighty etc. I DIDNT like spiderman 3, the sixth sense etc. Some of the names i dont even remember.hmmm. my sister, father and uncle always want to watch news ( it seems like they dont miss a news from any channel). and it makes me uncomfortable. basically i dont like these political stuff.DIRTY AND UGLY.( JUST GENERALISATION). And another important point i want to make is that about the news channels. the big issue now is the nuclear deal and the confidence motion. i have not find any channel which makes an investigation on the deal now.how many of the INDIANS have an idea about the dealings ? its essential because then only we can decide what is right/wrong (ELECTIONS AHEAD!!!).Sure the media has to concentrate on the political stuff, but dont make it " the whole" thing!there are many more things to do for the media.and today i didnt get the remote for one second. I watched the "wonderful" event happenned in the Parliment of one of the largest DEMOCRATIC NATIONS. THE GOVT made IT.i really feel ...

And i started my driving lessons today. clutch, break and accelerator... one problem i encountered is since my feet is small i find it difficult to control accelerator.hehe...may be i will find a soln next time.

And for me , one important thing also happened. Yeah its about Injoos. I really wanted to work in a Start up.but none of my classmates who got a call for interview are going for it.I believe I am independent , but the problem is i dont have much confidence because i have no knowlwdge in the field at which the firm is working.I really wanted to try because i am very much interested in Web development and all... Anyway i hope everything is for good.God let it!

Some of my friends started blogging since there are no other important things to do. Keep going...

i want to make some POINTS...just my thoughts.


BEING DIFFERENT doesnt simply mean that its great,for every DIFFERENCE may not be right
You dont sacrifice your life for your principle once you believed to be true and now recognised untrue
Dont ever in your life try to be static, be dynamic ...you can learn a lot eventhough you may fail
Satisfy yourself with your needs and wishes, DONT feed yourself with others' wishes and needs
Be courageous to think, act, love and live by YOUR OWN

EVERY LITTLE THING I DO.

i love to walk alone. but i havent done it for a long time. i really enjoy the lonliness; particularly nowadays.
here is something.
i didnt get a bus to my place. so i boarded into another which is going through a nearby place of mine. i didnt like those guys in the bus because they made some ugly unnecessary comments on me. somehow i managed to get down. and i decided to walk. its a 2.5 km walk , i think. the breeze was soft the water was beautiful and the climate was perfect.so i started walking. i went through this way about 4 years ago... for tution classes with my frens. i remembered those beautiful days.
there is a new cemetry in this place. you can find atleast a 1000 pots over there and a big pot with a height og 3 mts in front of it.the bones are deposited in it,i think. INNOVATIONS on STYLES and ATTITUDE.
the place does changed a lot, so do the people. i dont recognize anyone. some of those people talking about the nuclear deal.
i saw a kid with his grandpa enjoying the evening walk. i never had such wonderful times in my childhood. then some girls sitting by the side in a culcutT... oooh , they are staring at me? is there anything on my face? i just brushed with my shawl.they are saying something in Hindi. Thank God! i dont understand it. ha... moving on , i found some boys playing volley ball. not much impressive. and 3 buses passed by. the good old KSRTC...
i wanted to eat something but i controlled by convincing myself that ' girl you are not earning , since its not your money don't spent much '. n i did.Smart Tressy.
and here is a shop where you get almost everything. i have never bought anything yet. will buy something later.hopefully...
ooh it may rain now and i hate that, so i hurried. i saw kids having a bathe at the river, some cycling in a crazy way.some kids were playing with some sticks and leaves. one guy was saying the rules of the game. i had never played this game. I think these guys are INVENTING new games each day. Thank God, i can still find these kind of games...i mean other than the computer stuffs. I just love this!!!
there is a pond nearby. i have seen many big fishes there. but i didnt find any now.are they all dead??sad!
and there another group of kids performing diving and enjOying swimming. i found some house boats too.
there at the boat jetty, i found an old man sorrounded by 4 kids...grandpa n kids , i guess...fishing.. "choondaidunnu"what we call here...yeah he got a fish, the kids were impressed. the little one showed a fish in the water and asked him to catch it...hmmm...demanding!!! now kids are becoming more demanding, arent they? <>
anyway , only 4-5 mins left to reach home. the bridge is actually slanting to a side, but nobody cares. there was some rotten smell...may be some ""dead body"".
the old ladies are gossipping, the kids are playing, some fishing. ooh these are my neighbourers. they didnt notice me. they are busy yaar. i think they are doing a great job!good guys.
and i reached home with a nostalgic mood. i didnt SPEAK anything... i just slept...to see a sweet dream. but i didnt!

too much...

Back home. now my course is over and i have got nothing special to do now. i dont think i have learned much technically. but there are a lot of things to remember and to thank.
i tried to do cooking experiments last week. specially on chicken. i made a chicken Curry which tastes like mutton and it was not that bad. and another one was supposed to be pepper chicken. it was really great ...hmmm.


i dont noe whats exactly going on... theres something for sure...because i feel too much pain...
certain things in life last for the entire lifetime. and in my life i feel like it is some kinda pain which i dont noe.

here are some of farewell pics @ hostel....
the first one: my roommates..miss u a lot....
juniors did a lot of stuff... just see our names @ roof ..cooll...thanz da.. that was great too... missing u all...

they named it like this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

once again...but y???

oooh MY GOD!!! why this always happen 2 me...
yeah she is just like melvin and lintu.
eventhough she wasnt a good fren of mine, she was a good company ... but i didnt expect this...atleast you could have told me. not telling the truth is also a sin,because we really talked about it and from my part, i was very sincere. ha...
i dont feel any attachment to you. all i feel now is just hatred ... just hatred...
Thank God , i didnt expect much from her.
ND ABOUT THE BREAK OFF PARTY.
it was good. since i have no intimate relationships there, there wasnt much pain.
but the case is different in hostel. the pain is too much... i feel like... thank GOD for the lovely and wonderful mated i had here... n supriya, shabna, jeenu...i miss you a lot .. a lot...n all ...oh i just cant leave , but i must, na?...may God bless you today and everyday.

GOOD BYE GEC, GOOD BYE DIVYA...GOOD BYE MY WONDERFUL FRENS...MUAAAH!!!