special ? no, but i love it!

For a long time, I wasn’t able to visit/contribute anything here. The reason---my heart aches.
Now, I am trying for a restart…lets see…

About my new routine:
Since it is training now, the days are almost like college days but getting paid.

My alarm rings at 6.45 and after almost 3-5 snoozes I get up. Brushing, bathing etc in next 30 minutes. I sympathize myself for the number of hairs fallen from my head. If this goes like this, there will not be more than single strand of hair left. At about 7.45 I leave my room in hurry; with my friends, to the bus stop. Normally no breakfast. The classes start at 9 am. We arrive there at 8.15 or so. {I have never reached early during my college days!!!} My friends are seated near to me, so we don’t let anyone pass the door without a comment on their dressing/face/attitude. We have given good nick names for most of them. Sometimes these observation and related activities continue to the class sessions. hey…WE ARE HAVING FUN! {Just private}
Some classes are interesting, some are informative, some are both and others- boring. The tests are somewhat scaring. {…not that…}
We have one break at 10.30, usually spend @ class/ cafeteria which is @ the 6th floor.
The lunch break starts at 1.00. By the time we get the lift and reach the cafeteria there will be a very long queue which is not exactly following the “queue” strategy. Now a days we also violate the “queue” strategy, so that we get every curries and seats. After lunch, again to class. The lift here is an extra-ordinary type. It won’t open at certain floors and has no priority checking.
I feel sleepy during afternoon classes. There is one more break at 3.30. The “activities” continue…some days I leave there at 6 pm else at 8 pm. After dinner and washing and all, we watch tv. And usually sleep at 11 or 12. Thus a day ends.
I know there isn’t anything special in this routine, but there are some “special” people that make it excited and interesting. That’s what I need.

There are not many things happened these days. But just a few things like
-I realized that I am technically very poor
-I feel like my confidence is draining away
-I am NOT excited about my first job
-I really miss NOTHING
-I haven’t found the RIGHT GUY yet.{and no one has found me “right”}
-Haven’t found any interesting personality either.


--These are the last days of Tressy @ Hyderabad. I haven’t seen much places {there is too much}. I will be moving to Chennai on next week…yeah, again to a new place and new people.
Let’s see…

Cheers,
Tressy

lost...

I really don’t know what is going around me. It’s much worse than a confusion or depression. I know I am transforming, but to what I never want to. I forget about those million miles I need to go…also I am not enjoying the woods. I am dangling somewhere in between …no…I m in a deep trench from which no one but me could save.

I am here at the shore all alone…
Even the sun said bye long ago…
I am waiting for something …
Something precious and beautiful…
I cannot find the smile of the stars…
And the darkness seems so quiet…
And those waves end hugging me…
Everything has gone and no one is left…
But a silent weep and a frozen heart…

Now, the fog again covers my mind and my thoughts …
I have never enjoyed the coolness of this fog and I will never…
Let that storm come and take away all this…
At least for sometime…

LAVA.

TCS team from GEC, Thrissur(ladies), infront of GOLKONDA fort, hyderabad.
the cake was so yummy!!! really ....

tcs team from gec,tcr...the whole(sorry, the photographer !)
something is missing...
the smile, the thoughts, the tears ...
where is it heading to.?
somewhere i dont know...
i cannot come back!
i cannot see anymore!
everything is vague!
and the pains and sorrows...
just following me everywhere...
everywhere and everytime...
cheers, :)
tressy