from my heart

Below are some words that some daughter got to tell her mother. But she will never…

I love you so much my dearest, amma. But we are quite apart now.

I say you cannot understand me .And you feel like me ignoring you. I don’t know .sometimes it may my all fault.

When I slept in your womb, you gave yourself to shelter me, feed me and cared me like a precious gift. And you gave me a life on earth suffering all the pain, still you were the happiest person on my birth. As a kid you taught what is what and you could understand everything from my face. It was quite tough for me to hide something. You were my strength when I was weak, you were my eyes when I couldn’t see, and you lift me up when I was down. How comfort I felt when I slept on your lap and how sweet was your company! But when I grew up, I feel like being independent and smart. And there formed some gap between you and me. And I felt things some other way.

And when the chariot of time passed by, a lot of new things came to my life. The new desires, new hopes, new destination, new ideas, new principles and new relationship have changed my life. Of course the catch for the ‘new things’ provided me something in my life but not as great as your love. Some secrets that these ‘new things’ made widened the gap between you and me; yeah it was all my mistake.

Now I am a smart, independent girl and I know you are proud of that.(atleast I believe so) But still there is something that we miss, amma. You don’t understand me and I don’t understand you. May be because of generation gap. May be…

Of course I believe you are doing the best of your “Mom” job, but I am not a perfect daughter! I want to be, really.

But there is one thing.eventhough there is a lot of difference in our relationship over these years, I understand that you are the best listener in my world ,the best caretaker of my life ,the best judge of my activities, the best learner I have seen, the great love I have ever known.

That’s you, my amma. You are simply the best!!!Forgive me; forgive me for being so stupid and silly. I really love you a lot. You are simply the best; amma I mean it