An awesome day!

I feel very much sleepy now (11:50 pm) but I cant go to bed without scribbling this.
Today was an eventful day! Nothing like this happened for a pretty long time!
The day started like this... I woke up at around 7.30 with a confusion (more than that!) whether to go for a tournament(badminton) which I nominated myself some days back.


//Flash back//: Yesterday : When I called up my other friends who nominated, they said that they are not going because the venue is too far and the game would be tough (so its not worth going!).
Even I didnt know how to reach there or know anyone. And above all, I am not a badminton player. I just play it for fun. But my friend and room-mate, Varna, insisted me to go and participate and I was in confusion. Really I couldnt make a decision. So I slept  with a conclusion " I will do what I feel tomorrow when I wake up"


//Main Story//: Varna** left to office saying "All the best!"...Hmmm...For almost half an hour I struggled to make a decision. Atlast I called up couple of my friends, they didnt pick up... Its early morning :)) So called my amma. She said, "Hey, you should go...you should dear. And lets see". So I didnt give it another thought. And this was the only instance which I struggled to make a decision of my own( that too on a silly thing). I felt like, I m losing all my confidence and control over my life and myself.
 I bathed and started. I had only rs.100  with me. So asked one of my friends to
borrow some. Everything fine! For the first time in my life, I felt like the courage to participate in the event is more important that winning or losing. I always wanted to win or say, achieve! Even now. But this time, the more that mattered was the courage to go there and participate. So I decided to do it all by myself. I wanted to prove myself that I am independent and I can do this, so that I can believe that I am smart/good/confident. Other side of it is, this "to do by myself" decision is , I hurt my friend* and even I felt too bad.
I reached there in time, and the tournament was going on. I registered and waited for announcement. Some girls were practicing there. Two girls were playing pretty well. It reminded me of my old "sports" days. I tried to act "confident" and done a little "show-offs". Actually according to me, the 3 best ways to deal with your opponents are
1. Give them a very wide/smart/open smile and say hi. And initiate a conversation and appreciate/praise/wish them.And be very cool.
2. Relax (try to) sometime and do trials in your own way. 
3. Do have a unique way while entering the track/court and use self-motiation methods and a lil show-offs.


I used to do this during my old times, so naturally it happened this time too :)) . The first two rounds were easy. And for the finals, I was tired like anything. I pity myself for the coffees i used to drink these days and my endurance/stamina.Really Pathetic.
One of the colleagues helped me a lot , really a lot. Thanks. :)
And another, perhaps very, interesting thing happened. hmmm.. Yeah, another addition to my crush list. I saw this guy playing in another court and he was playing too good and looking too good also. I was staring at him during the whole game. Cool, smart and indeed hot! :))
To my surprise, he came to talk to me and congratulated me! Oooh, gosh...just imagine that!!!
And I left the stadium!, with something.. a feeling which cannot be described. Its not much about that guy...its ... See, I did it.Yeah I did!
On the way back to home,I bought 2 roses...Thought of giving it to some one. :) And then went to beach! But it was not that beautiful today :(   But I was :)
I felt proud of myself. Eventhough its not that a great deal or something, the day had everything in it. Internal conflicts, fight with dear ones, my capability , spirit and strength.The scratch* that was left was patched up later.


*Dear,I apologise.
**Thanks a lot for your support!


Cheers,
Tressy.
PS: For the first time in my life, I understood whats real sportsman spirit. The courage to participate and take up the challenge.